To JV Sir and to anyone else concerned :)

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As a reply to post on  Integral Development Lab (IDL)-3 blogged by JV Avadhanulu Sir
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Hi Sir,

The Himalayan Outbound Program is one of those things which I will cherish for many years to come. It is a true test for the health, we, the aspiring future managers of this country possess. All of my batch mates must have got the unofficial grade sheets of their health and will definitely work to look and feel healthier than their present situation.

I will remember HOP not only for the Golden moments I lived during 3^rd of November to 11^th of November but also because of you again and again praising my persistent during the task which we have done there.

Sir, there were two times when you asked me to say something in front of my fellow batch-mates. I believe being 22, I am younger than most of them. Apart from this I believe most of them are far intelligent than me to set their priorities for their life; and to alter those priorities is really a Herculean task if I want to do. I know most of us want to earn a lot of money, even if we need to sacrifice any wellness of soul, mind or body for that. This attitude is really difficult to modify, especially in the young age of ours. So I find it really cumbersome (read it ‘shy’ otherwise) exercise to advice anything to anybody else. Everybody learns in life in their own way. But I can share only how my life was in past 22 years, which can be taken as inspiring story or a narcissistic story, depending upon the attitude of reader.  

Before telling the problem I am facing, I want to make clear that no doctor whom my family met was able to detect accurately the name of illness I am having. I just get a hazy picture from all those discussions that my nervous system is weak plus there is some bone distortion in my body nearby hips. After my birth, I had been trapped in illness after getting fits/epilepsy attack at the age of one and half year. During first such attack in 1991-92, I cut some part of my tongue also.  When my case was on the verge of healing, doctor injected some wrong medicine which resulted in damage of my nervous system. I had a series of fits/epilepsy attacks after that till the age of five. I can still remember a little-bit of such last attack in 1995 when I was awake and fall from bed; cannot remember what happened after that.Leave the walking, I was unable to sit on my own when I was six.I always needed support to sit.Certainly, even my relatives can not imagine those days when they see me now. I was in my village, till 2004 and information about what the best can be done for me was not available to my family. Yet, I can surely say that my parents have done the best possible they could do for me. Nobody in family had any wild idea about my future till I was in village and passed 10^th standard. After that to pursue further studies, I with my family moved to the city. I believe that was one of the critical turning points in my life as I came in direct exposure of many many new things. Since then I am aspiring to make something big out of my life which can make me feel proud on myself.

There was a time when I was really hopeless about improvement in my well-being. But, during my graduation days, there were my friends who inspired me to join gym. It was just for teenage fun that time. Recently, I choose gym as a passion. I go to gym at least 3 days a week. I believe going to gym helped me a lot in terms of building my muscles and infused some power in them. My current goal is to build stamina for running 1km comfortably, and I believe it cannot come from going to gym but by doing other types of exercise like Yoga(This Yoga thought was there in mind somewhere, but after attending your sessions, this belief became strong). My fight to make my nervous system stronger is still on; and I believe I am going to sustain against this lifelong challenge. I have always been a hard-worker and I believe this is the key for my all accomplishments till time.

Love and live to die another Day. :)

P.S.: Even after 700+ words I find this post incomplete as I did not thank my group-mates and Aurbindo Ashram Staff who helped me a lot during all tracking. Also a lot of things like beautiful sun-set scenes of Aurobindo Ashram, Paragliding event in Naukuchiatal(25Kms away from Nainital) which was indeed a divine experience I had and home-food of Aurbindo Ashram would need thousands of words to explain.